Conditional Thoughts

Someone had correctly said. Women can make you achive whatever you want, and at the same time she can distroy as well. It is you who have to take a decision where you have to stop and whome you have to take ahead.   At this stage there is a women in my life as well. I'm not looking at her as my love, and I made it clear to her also. But at the same time we are not just friends. We had been physical with each other. We became physical with eachother. We did sex as a friends. It happens out of attraction.  Though I'm saying that I'm not in love with her but I think she is. I think she is just waiting for me to sey het I love you. If I express my love to her, definitely she will accept it. It is also not like that I'm just physically attracting towards her, but there r some emotional feelings also. But I can't call it as love.  Because of all these I'm getting distracted from my problems, from my goal, from my carrier, from the things which r really importent to me...

At this point I really don't know were I'll land up, regarding relations, connection, friends, people, nd financially.  I don't know whether this is my nature or any problem I have. It keeps on following me everywere. I able to build nice good relations with the people, with my friends or any other person i meet, I try to be as humble as I can. I always see that good one in every person I meet.  but i don't know After some point of time I don't even want to talk to them for no........ reason. I don't even Bother to look at them. It is not like they r just my hii buy type friends. After building a good relations with them I treat them like this. Not talking to them, not looking at them, not texting them. Nd it's undulating. Because of my personal problems whenever I feel low, depressed, falling apart; instead of talking to them, taking their help; l break connection with them.  Right now I'm not able to handle my  personal problems. I don't want to te...