Conditional Thoughts

 Took a decision of going behind the dreams without thinking about the problems. Means not letting the problems take over my dreams. But.......... there is a conflict or u can say dilemma inside whether I'm doing correct or not, whether ii will find the answers or solutions by going in this way. Many times this this thought comes in my mind that really am I achieving anything.  Don't know why but money can't withstand by me. Whenever money comes to me, imidiatly some or in other way it go away from me. Currently I am getting more deduction massages than credit ones. May be some intangible reasons would be there or may be I'm only doing unnecessary spendings. I think I'm only spending it unnecessarily.   I don't know yarrr. But reason kuch bhi ho, ek baat toh hai ki haat me paise rukta nahi. May be some ansisteral problems. But I can't give such kind of excuses.  The people who don't know to earn they only give such excuses for their whole life. Pr bhai p...

 This space is like an addiction. Something is there in this space. Some kind of intangible energy is there which makes me come here every day.  Every corner of it have it own feel with all kind of enthusiastic people. All the senior citizens enjoy the sip of coffee seating on their everyday KATTA @ MaIyYa'S cAfFe. Don't know what jadu is there in that coffee, but it is like addiction to them. It is not only about the coffee, it's all about meeting their friends, spending the best evening time. Irrespective of traffic and hussel- bussel there is a different kind of peace is there in this air, which makes them to come here everyday. I tho feel a reathum in this traffic also.  another is occupied by one more katta for youth & middle age group called as 'HaTtI kApPi'. It's a chai cum paan shop. Not much crowded, Settelled under a big beautiful tree, deemed ambient lighting. There r two more corners on the opposite side of a road . this side or road is more happ...

 So....... here I'm, alone on Sunday. Pretending to be happy, enjoying, enjoying my own company. My impression on others is like, I'm a lone traveller who wants to enjoy his own company only. He don't want to travel with his friends or colleagues. I only made that impression on them, to make them impress, to make them curious about me. But..... I think I'm faking myself.  Truth is, I don't want to be alone, I don't want to travel alone. I always want to be with my friends, or with the one who can understand me. With whome I'll feel comfortable.